There’s not a drop of self justification in my comment, either. )

As long as the maelstrom INSIDE your mind helps effect your own personal Zen-like state of creativity, what’s OUTSIDE it can obediently take on an almost fractal-like curvature that reflects & completes the process.

(Hence, the creative mess!)

Ask yourself:
Are my meditations & surroundings shaped to match what someone else says should work, or what my own experience tells me?

Experiment, experiment! Enjoy your play. You might be changing the world with your every thought.